By Pokey • I feel like I am living my life out of order. If my life is a jigsaw puzzle to be assembled, then God seems to have started mine somewhere in the middle.
Everyone else starts at the edges because those pieces have that one flat side which makes them easy to identify. The four corners are even easier with their two flat sides. So the life of a child…the simple stuff first. But I can remember possessing an old wisdom when I was a very young child. These were not delusions of grandeur, more like the contemplative hindsight of a well-lived senior citizen within my six year old mind.
It is probably no coincidence that it is at that age I received Christ, and the Holy Spirit came to live in me. In that He is both spiritual guide and teacher, then I believe that explains the wisdom.[pullquote]The human mind likes to start at the edges and build boundaries so we can get a feeling of control. But that is the real delusion, because there are still hundreds of little pieces scattered about and we have few clues as to where they go.[/pullquote]
For most of us, life is a complex web of inter-relationships. Still, there are experiences that have taken place in my life that seem to be out of order. I’ve had things happen that I just knew were significant, but years passed before I found out why and how. Or sometimes seemingly insignificant events, abandoned and forgotten in the dusty attic of my mind, will be recalled and find their place in the present. Since God is the One who created and owns this puzzle which is my life, I have come to accept that He can choose to put it together any way He deems best.
The human mind likes to start at the edges and build boundaries so we can get a feeling of control. But that is the real delusion, because there are still hundreds of little pieces scattered about and we have few clues as to where they go. God only knows, yet He is not one to impose His will on us. So He will step back and allow us to search for the pieces that will fit into an area of our choosing. We try to figure out our lives by looking at the picture on the box top. Some pieces fall nicely into place, some take a lot of trial and error.
Those times of trial and error have often caused me to step back and say, “God help me, please! My back aches, my eyes hurt, I’m frustrated”. And the voice of Wisdom reminds me that I am His creation and that He knows the big picture without looking at the box. I just need to surrender.
It’s okay with me if He is building my life out of order (from my perspective). His ways are not my ways – for which I am thankful. I know He and I will one day step back to survey the completed work and I will marvel at how He made all those little pieces to fit together. And it will be beautiful.
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